I'm me again

I have been on pause. I have stopped exhaling. I have been waiting for better. I have been afraid of moving. That was descriptive of me just a few days ago. I was dying on the inside and prepared for a burial. Yet God had other plans. These dry bones shall live were His words to me. I would live and mot die. I was not to fade away. I was not to stay paused. God has pushed the play button and His forward motion has been in effect. The day I emerged from the self imposed cocoon I will never forget. On a path that I had often seen I walked in silence with God. He seemed to have painted the sky an even prettier blue. The green of the trees were even more intense. The sun shone even brighter. He gave me the gift of the present. I was in the now of the day; of my life. I exhaled. I was alive. I was me again. My friends I encourage you to live in the now. Tomorrow is not ours and not promised to any of us. We are all like fading grass. We are a vapour, here today and gone tomorrow. Tomorrow may be too late to start living your life. Take the gift God gives to us...this is the day the Lord has made. Rejoice and be glad in it.

Though it tarries....wait on God's appointed time

As we think on God's timing we can conclude that it is perfect. God is not a God of confusion. No, He is a God of order. Everything He does or did is intentional and at an appointed time. Summer will never preceed spring and the moon will never seek to outshine the sun. Yes. God has an appointed time. Turn if you will to Habakkuk 2, Habakkuk 2:2-3 NKJV Then the Lord answered me and said: “Write the vision And make it plain on tablets, That he may run who reads it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry. Some of us have put away the written tablets of our God given vision. Like Zachariah, the father of John the Baptist, we prayed in the days of our youth and received no answer. We have quelled our disappointment and logically accepted that the time for giving birth (to the vision) has long since past. We have dried our tear stained eyes and are pressing on in service for God. We are not living in the tomorrow or the yesterday and might have shouted loud hallelujahs to the Now timing of God. Yet , we are not holding on to the vision. Yes - just like good old Zachariah we have buried the vision away. Beloved who told you that God said no? Luke 1 tells us that the angel told Zachariah that God heard his prayer! The fact that Z himself was at a loss upon the angels message tells me the prayer was not recent. He might have asked what prayer? He forgot while God's appointed time was about to speak and not lie. The tarrying was over. Only, Z was not waiting. He didn't even think it was a possibility. Does this sound like a page from your journal? What we miss is that the vision was never ours. Gods plans remains and are in perfect alignment. These people that were well past the age of having children were to be pregnant with the forerunner of Jesus Christ! So we need to wait and trust God to fulfill His vision in our lives at the appointed (set, fixed, pre-destined) time. They that wait upon the Lord shall be renewed in their strength. They shall run and not get weary. They shall walk and not faint. (Isa 40:31). Those who trust in the Lord and acknowledge Him in all their ways are guaranteed their paths will be God directed. (Prov 3:5-6). Wait with good courage my friend, though it tarries....wait on God's appointed time. God bless you all. YER💕

I am tired

I have been caught up in a wind not of my doing. I seem to be moved here there and everywhere and I am exhausted. I am tired of being tired. I am sick of others being sick. I am ready for the exit but there is none...it's just the wind.
If I allow myself these thoughts would consume me. I would sink into despair and depression. If I allow myself these thoughts would become shackles and where I was once free I would be bound.

I understand better than I did before why I need to renew my mind daily and sometimes hourly. I get why I need to think on things that are true and lovely, anything that is excellent and praise worthy. (Phil 4:8). My friend it is easy to collapse under the weight of our sorrows. It is easy to bear the burden forgetting the burden bearer says cast it all on me. It is easy to see only what is before you.  However it is not the life of the free. It is not the life of those called by Christ's name.

Today in spite of the challenges God wants us to lift our eyes to Him. HE IS OUR HELP. He is our strength and our peace. Today the invitation has been given...He says come unto me all who are weary and heavy hearted. Peace and joy are in His presence. I'm tired of holding it all together on my own. Today I'm saying yes to the invitation....what about you?