Friday, March 6, 2020

Why do you weep?

I don't know why I am already tearing up without even touching the keys my heart feels full. I feel the need to lie in my bed and weep. The why I cannot quite figure out and really wish I could explain to myself if not to anyone else.

Why do you weep Engada?

This is a new year, with a new day full of God's new mercies. I am able to stand in the liberty that still remains through Christ Jesus. I am able to rest in the arms of God that is still able to uphold me. I have an eternal invitation to come boldly before the creator of Heaven and Earth who receives me 24/7. I am blessed and not cursed beyond measure.

So why do I weep? Why does my soul feel sorrowful within me?

At this moment, I say to my soul, do not despair. Consider the things you do have and bemoan no longer what is not yet or may never be your for Father knows best.

Instead, I say to my soul "wait silently on God alone." David said it best as he encouraged himself and his people in Psalm 62:1-2, 5-8

I do not need to continue to dress for this pity party of one that plans to add nothing but tears of sorrow to my day - to my year. God is still God and I am still His.

If by chance you are here and have felt this inexplicable moment of 'sadness' be likewise encouraged by David's psalm - be unshakeable and expect from Him what He has promised. though it tarries wait upon the Rock and Salvation. He is trustworthy!

Psalm 62

Psalm 61 Psalm 63

Psalm 62 New King James Version (NKJV)

A Calm Resolve to Wait for the Salvation of God

To the Chief Musician. To Jeduthun. A Psalm of David.

62 Truly my soul silently waits for God;
From Him comes my salvation.
²He only is my rock and my salvation;
He is my ^[a]defense;
I shall not be greatly moved.^[b]

⁵My soul, wait silently for God alone,
For my ^[c]expectation is from Him.
⁶He only is my rock and my salvation;
He is my defense;
I shall not be ^[d]moved.
⁷In God is my salvation and my glory;
The rock of my strength,
And my refuge, is in God.

⁸Trust in Him at all times, you people;
Pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us. Selah

Poetic Liberty