Almost everything that I write
is born out of some experience I have personally had, or a conversation between
friends. This piece is no
different. A friend was talking about
her sister, and their unsettled relationship.
I thought, to myself, this is not isolated to just one person. She, the sister, has something (because I can’t
think of a word to describe this) against my friend, for reasons only known to
her. So my friend wrote:
“She’s much older, I drive, bought my house, graduated
high school and college, had a FT job all before her, … but even thru all this …
I still considered her the strongest
person I ever knew; Because she was there supporting me through
all of the above mentioned, ….”
I read how she viewed her and
had to just shake my head. We are all like her sister, in that we never
fully see who we are, what we are and how we are. We never see ourselves in the light, the way
God intended. Instead we shun the compliments from others. They say you
are Strong. We respond with the question
of incredibility, “Me?” Brave. Me? Worthy. Me? Do you know what
else we do like this sister here? We look
at someone else and become often times enraged at the comparisons we make, as
we find ourselves lacking. We close off
ourselves and become wrapped in our self-induced cocoon of misery. We never emerge from that cocoon as a
beautiful butterfly, but as hardened women/men, untrusting, with horrible
attitudes. I know, what I have said is
ugly, but then, so is the truth of it all.
My question is “When does it end?”
Even as a Child of God, I am
admitting that this is the picture of me sometimes. It is harsh and really like
cold water in my face. My reaction may
be a little different; or rather God won’t allow me to wallow in self-pity
forever. He will not let me stay wrapped up in misery when He has his joy
that strengthens me. So I usually get a
reality check sooner than later – thank God for that.
It is easy to point to others
and say you need to fix this or that, but I am asking you to stare at you. Ask God to show you that fearfully and
wonderfully made person that is you. Ask Him to show you those plans that are
good, that he has for your future. Ask Him to allow you to hear those songs
that He sings over you, and all that rejoicing and dancing that he does for
you. Ask Him to show you His banner of love that flies over you.
Loved ones, it is time to break
out of the misery and embrace who you are in Christ.